are starting to become the norm. maybe two weeks ago i decided to start studying late at USC again as i did a year ago, because if i didn't i'd be failing all, or most, of my classes right now. this is something i tried to avoid in the beginning of the semester, and hence why i didn't see a lot of my friends this semester, because i don't live in the best area, and it isn't in my interest to come home at that time. but it isn't in my interest to fail all of my classes this semester either. why is this semester so stressful? biology. BI-fucking-OLOGY.

so let me just give you a quick run-down of what's been happening with that class:

i had one test last wednesday, i have another test for the lab in biology tomorrow(final lab practicum), then one week from that i have the final. on non-test related material, i have to hand write three lab reports (each of which takes around 3 hours) and i've finished one so far and they're due in my scientific notebook tomorrow. remember that this is all just for one class! i have obligations with my other classes as well but if i wasn't putting this class at a higher priority than my other classes there's no doubt i'd have dropped it by now or i'd be failing it.

in addition to this, i have to read an additional two chapters for the final. but i also have to do things for my other classes:

for spanish class i have homework, a presentation, lab work, as well as in class projects, and an essay. i also have to finish the lab for this class.

and for ethics i have to finish reading an entry by kant and thompson (which i'm very interested in both seeing as i'm a philosophy major but i haven't had much time to read either)

lastly i have to review for my symbolic logic class. all of this in one week!

it's been like this all semester, and i just have one more week of class left. i cannot wait to wind down.

on non-stressful news, i sold one my old computer to my cousin and with the money i bought a sound card and a mouse. the mouse is a Razer Deathadder 3500 and cost my around $60. the sound card is an HT OMEGA 7.1 Striker 7.1 and cost me $90. with tax and shipping it was around $170. the mouse is amazing. it has a backlight in it that slowly turns off and which illuminates the razer sign, it's very accurate and has 5 buttons. making the switch to it from my trackball is difficult but i'm getting used to it. i instantly noticed the difference with my sound card, it sounds freaking amazing. unfortunately i had to remove the back panel to install it (i tried a bunch of times, the shit would not fit) but it sounds great. also stopped getting BSODs once i updated the drivers. all in all, i'm proud of my purchase.

i also mailed in a rebate i had today for my powersupply (crap was $160 D: )so i should get $30 back from that. if i do, i'll either by some zune headphones (i haven't used my zune in months and i broke the original ones that came with it. the original ones were amazing and i don't want to use any other type ) or i'll buy myself the webcam i bought my sister (she said it works way better than the webcam i lent her even though they both cost the same price)after i buy a new webcam all i'll need is a new processor and i'll be completely done with my computer upgrades! well...that is, until i decide to get a new case and a new motherboard. then, i'll be done lol.

while i bought some presents with paypal (which i never use) it didn't work. i decided to log into it today to see what the problem was and my paypal is linked to my old wamu account (and wamu doesn't exist anymore) so i have to readd my bank account with paypal.

one more week for this semester to be over, can't wait! :D

Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: Canned Heat (FLAC) by Jamiroquai

so that chick i really like in my biology class, actually is pregnant. it kind of sucks because i'm really starting to like her. i don't think she has a BF right now, and i'm still thinking about dating her. she has this like odd mix of personality traits which i think blend pretty well, although there were a few awkward moments today between her and i:

she made a racial joke saying that the drawing that the tutor made had "nigger lips" to which no one said anything to. she also got mad at me because i joked about disecting kittens, something she said was "not funny." but i'm really starting to like this girl more and more every day, and unless i'm completely blind, the feelings are mutual.

next wednesday we're supposed to be throwing a little potluck for our teacher's birthday. it should be really fun. i had a little heart to heart with him. he came in the U.S. when he was 14 apparently out of chance because his parents were good bakers apparently. and at some point his parents abandoned him and he had to stay in the U.S. on his own. he's come really far since then. he also used to have a huge love for basketball apparently. and he used to play for hours and hours a day. i kind of believe him too with the way he is about doing things.

he told me today as i was waiting for my classmates to finish the class that i was going to fail the class. i was like "WHAT!?" he was joking but said that my group members sucked, something which i already know. he didn't have my test back today, but he should have it done by tomorrow so i'll see how it goes.

spanish class is starting to get really really difficult as well. all this work is piling up and i have to get it done within a small time frame. looks like i'm going to be having two more full weeks of 8 hour days, and then...FINALS

i have one final at 9:30am-11:30am on monday for biology, and later that day i have another final from 5:00pm-7:00pm for symbolic logic

on tuesday i have a final for ethics, and finally on wednesday i have a final for spanish, and then i'm done.

if i mess up and get really terrible marks this semester, i might as well go ahead and wave by to any UCs i hope to apply to. i have to be very careful in these next two weeks, this will be the most important semester in college i'll probably take in undergrad, and i have to be careful not to make any mistakes that are too big.

so yesterday i got to my spanish class and i completely forgot that we were going to have a potluck so i didn't bring anything. felt really bad but no one seemed to make a big deal. had some cool conversation with this dude in class who i had never really spoken to before about him working vallet at the grove, school, and other stuff. it was cool

after that was over, i went to the science building to go over some of the homework problems with my classmates. once in class the teacher was giving the lecture and someone knocked on the door; when i went to open it he said "DON'T open the door" so i didn't. thought he was being kind of a dick but i guess he didn't want to be interrupted.

after that, i took a short break and hung out for a while, was reading some UC article that i posted on facebook and then went to the Office of Special Services to help tutor some people. so i'm in there and i'm just hanging out. Inside there's this really really cute girl inside. she seems really nice too. so we're all hanging out and they ask me if i want to help some foreigners with ESL. i thought cool i wouldn't mind helping people with grammar. so they give me like this salvadorian lady and it was bad lol. i didn't factor in how bad my spanish was and...certain words i just didn't know lol. i was able to use a computer to google things though and explain the concepts to her, so it went ok. although, next door this guy was helping a blind lady with philosophy which i much much rather would have done(seeing as i am a philosophy major : D ). so when i was helping this lady, i was saying an anthill and i said "arrmiga" or something, whereas it's actually pronounced "hormiga" so i said it odd but eventually she understood what i meant. sessions were only supposed to last 50 minutes and i had already spent an hour and ten minutes with her, so we wrapped things up. i kind of felt bad for her because she took a shit ton of notes and she just wasn't getting the concepts. her words were really hard though, i have to admit. once i went outside, this girl was just like "i saw you trying to say ant inside there." i was like "oh... >.>" she was like "let me hear you say it again?" i was like "uh..." and after thinking about it for a few moments i said it correctly. she said she thought it was cute to see me try to pronounce the word. i was just like lol. shortly after that i got my stuff and left.

next i went to go get tutored myself. i go inside and say hi to everyone. my teacher and my tutor were all talking shit to me because i said i was interested in philosophy and philosophy was bullshit and science was where the answers were at. i was just like "you do know science is based on philosophy right?" they were like "NO!" i was just like "LOL" so we get to tutoring and start talking. the guy who was tutoring us was wearing an awesome shirt that said "Pat McCrotch(if you don't get the joke, say it out loud)"

there's this girl in tutoring who's been going lately and everytime i see her i'm starting to have more and more of a crush on her. i mean she's cute and all, but my biggest turn on from her would probably be her confidence. she's so confident with whatever she says. in tutoring she was getting all the answers spot on to the questions the tutor was asking us. i was just like "wow, you really know this stuff" to which she winked at me and was like "yeah ;)" i thought that was so awesome. the one big problem with her is that she may have latina syndrome (any of you who know latina's know that they get pregnant really fast apparently) so i think she might be pregnant. the reason why is one time in tutoring, she like tapped her stomach and was like "wow, my baby is hungry" to which i was like "oh..." so that would suck if she was, but if she isn't she's definitely someone i'd like to ask out to lunch or the movies or something.

after tutoring was over, these two other girls i tutored with asked if any of us wanted to go to grab dinner with them. i joined them at el pollo loco and we just ate our food, talked about our majors, complained about our teacher, and had many good laughs. this went on for about an hour and a half until we all decided to leave. it was very fun however, and i'm glad i had lunch with them.

when i came home i was exhausted, and i just wanted to sleep. i think i stayed on facebook, twitter, and irc for a while and then i just went to sleep in my warm bed. i really enjoyed yesterday.

like i've been saying, i really enjoy these relationships that i've been building with all of these people. i'm kind of sad that we'll only be doing it for two more weeks when fall semester ends. i kind of don't want it to end. i like wednesdays so much. at the same time however, this semester has been destroying me and i just want to be done with it. i guess i'll see how things go.

happy thanksgiving everyone!

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Beggin (Pilooski Edit) by Frankie Villi and The Four Seasons

a few days ago in spanish class two of my classmates (whose names i know) forgot my name. one of them called me marco lol. made me not feel so bad seeing as i completely forgot two of my classmates names. one of the girls whose names i forgot seems to have a big crush on me. pretty sure i caught her in class like staring at me once. i'm not attracted to her like at all though, but it's whatever. i saw her on the bus and i waved high. she was walking really close to some guy so i assumed he was her BF (she also told the professor that she was pregnant too) i thought it would be rude of me to see her and not say hi, so i tapped her on the shoulder and said hi. i instantly regretted it. her BF just gave me this look like "who the fuck are you and why are you talking to my girl??" i was just like "uh...>.>" tweeted about how awkward it was and went my own way.

yesterday i was pretty exhausted. i did a bunch of stuff:

i got out of my ethics class and started talking to my teacher. he said he didn't have much time to talk so i asked if he knew when my logic professor was going to be done with class. he said "he'll be in his office when he's done" i said "his office or your office?" because they share an office; he said "our office." so i said "so he'll be in our office when he's done." realizing he was corrected, he said "he'll be in his part of our office when he's done" i just laughed and we went our seperate ways.

first i talked to my logic teacher. he said he didn't have my exam yet but he'd email me when he got a chance to grade it. i ended up getting a C on the exam. i got a B on the first exam (80 points) a C on this second exam (70 points) and i need a total of 210 points to pass the class with at least a C. i also have 40 extra credit points, so i only need 20 more points to pass the class which i'm pretty sure i'll be able to get before class is over :D although, these concepts are really hard >.<

next i went to go print out my homework for biology. after that i went to go talk to my spanish teacher. she said because i had 9 absences, she had to lower my grade by one letter grade and that if i missed any more grades, and didn't turn in my lab notebook (which i haven't started yet at all lol) and that's assuming i do well on my tests and the rest of my essays.

next i went to tutoring. my tutor gave me a brief but very helpful guide on how to start my essay and what she expects from me. he recommended that i register for my classes as soon as possible, so i got into this epic long line, and to get my classes registered for spring. while in line i was talking to this girl, i was being pretty social with her. she was kind of cute, but she was one of those girls who like moves her shirt around every 3 seconds because she thinks your staring at her cleavage. so i got to talking about her, we were talking about school, our majors, teachers, etc. i asked her if she'd ever plan on leaving out of state and she said it wasn't an option because she had a kid. i didn't want to be the type of guy who was like "well now that i know that we're not going to do it, later..." so i continued to talk to her even though i thought she should have told me earlier (we had been talking for over and hour when she told me) so we talked and eventually when we got into the office we went our seperate ways.

i talked to my counselor and he said that i could register for my classes at 3pm that day, and what a coincidence it was that as soon as i entered his office it was 3:01pm. so he told me to get to any computer asap and start registering, which i did and i now have all of my classes registered for spring.

after that, i went to the transfer center and i wanted to make sure i had everything finalized. i was mainly talking to this girl in there who's pretty cool. she's majoring in computer science. she's freaking nuts, she told me that she was in calculus 3 already. i was just like christ. the funny thing is that she works in the transfer center but she hasn't finished her application yet. so i told her i'd come back in and check on her to see if she finished it. after we finished adding everything she asked if i wanted my personal statement read. i asked her what she'd recommend and she said that she heard that the worst thing to do is to submit your statement without having someone proof read it, so i told her that i'd like them to proof read it. she said to come back on monday, so i'll go back on monday to see what they said and to see if she finished her personal statement : )

after that, i went to FAC for a while because i seriously needed to wind down ( at this point i had just been doing school related business for like 5 hours) so i went there and i saw zaroug playing DDR with some guy. they left when i got there and i played a few games, and then they came back. when i was leaving i said goodbye to her and we talked for a bit, then i left home.

today i went to study at USC. i was so lost with my logic problems that i spent like an hour on 1 problem (and i didn't get it right) not because i don't know the rules (i know all 18 of them) but because i'm not sure how to critcally apply them all to one another well enough to solve the problems. so i planned on staying there till later tonight but my phone had died which kind of forced me to leave early. but i just got my phone charger back from my sister's house so hopefully it will charge better now.

i should probably get started on my essay now, and finish up some bio HW. can't wait till december is over so i can catch up with some old friends who i care about, and who i've missed so much <33

so i have to major tests today, both of which are extremely difficult. i have several assignments that are due that didn't get done, so as i'm leaving home i'm about to tweet only to realize that my phone has 0 battery bars and will probably die very soon (it probably died 5 min after i checked it) so i move on, start reviewing for my bio class on the bus, get a decent bit done, and go to spanish class. wasn't able to get some spanish HW done, but the teacher gave us an opportunity to finish it in class. so i worked on it and got most of it done, but i needed to leave for my test and the class time was already over. so i ask my teacher if i can turn it in tomorrow because i have a test today and she said yes, so i left for my test.

i met up with a bunch of kids studying in the tables in the science building. everyone was going through their notes for the bio test, and sooner than later we have to leave for the test. as i'm on my way there i ask these two girls who i go to tutoring with how the test was. one of them goes "uhnnnnnnn............." i'm like "oh fuck..." that came from the girl who usually does very well on the tests. so i go take the tests, don't do too bad on the multiple choice and start working on the essay questions. now, since i go to tutoring i kind of have a step up of all the other kids who don't go (of the maybe 120-200 kids, only around 5-10 of us go to tutoring; usually it's more like 5 though) so i didn't have trouble on the essay questions, except, for the first time in my life: i actually ran out of time on a test and didn't finish it. i couldn't believe it. i was so close to completely finishing it. there was no part of the test where i was simply blankly staring at the test, i was writing my ass off. however, some parts of the test were extremely time consuming, and as i was finishing my last problem, the timer rang and the professor said "that's it guys, turn your work in." maybe 14 out of the total 22 students were still working when the buzzer rang. trust me, this wasn't just an issue with me, it was an issue with everyone. that just goes to show you how retardedly large the workload of this class is. outside, there were students who told me that they skipped one or two essay questions (i answered all of the first 5 and part of the last one which was the one i ran out of time on.) when we were complaining to the teacher that we didn't have enough time, his response was priceless: "hey man, life's a bitch" at one point during the test when one of the girls i study with was explaining her frustration to him, he made his hand into a gun, pointed it to his head and pulled the trigger. even he knew how retarded it was haha. so i finished the test, i got no break because the buzzer ran out, then we went to lab. at lab i was working on trying to figure out why the hell the microscope wasn't working with the slide. at the end of class i finally figured out why: i wasn't using "oil immersion" i was using "oil immersion...remover) i completely missed the remover part which was why my image instead of being crystal clear was as fuzzy looking as it was, i was exhausted.

after class, i talked to my symbolic logic teacher and i reminded him that i was going to take the test tomorrow. i told him about how difficult my biology class was and he said "if you need more time, let me know" i told him while tomorrow would be great, wednesday would be amazing, and he said it was cool. so he let me postpone the test by two days, a test i'm studying right now for. thank fucking god for understanding teachers.

i went to get a slice of pizza and was going to go out to study and have my brother pick me up later, when i realized that my phone was dead and there was no way that i could call him, so i just went straight home, and i've been trying to wind down since i've been here.

this bioclass is a 4 unit class that feels like a 6 unit class, it's so hard. i can't wait till next month is over and i'm done with this class.

Current Mood: exhausted

my last blog post was really optimistic, talking about how everything was going great. litterally the next day after i made that post, everything went to shit: all of my work caught up with me ridiculously, and i was struggling to get on par, just trying to get in the same level with everyone else. i eventually did it, but i'm not taking that chance again

in my bio class, on what i call "hell week," i call it that because it was one incredibly hard test followed by another incredibly hard test. one on monday, and one on wednesday, but we also had to hand write in our scientific notebooks out labs(which took 3 hours each) as well as finish our homeworks, and do the normal lab paper we have to submit every week. as i said, hell week. so normally, there are 60 points up for grabs weekly (40 from the homework, 20 for the lab) this week there was 340 (20 points = 1% of the class, so this was 17 % of our total grade in one week, as opposed to the 3% we get normally) not to mention that class was rushed, and in general it was just a really huge mess. i didn't study for the midterm, and i got a 69 on it (one point away from a C, but since it's a point system i'm not too worried) this is without a doubt the class with the biggest workload i've ever taken. it says 4 units but it feels like 6.

i had my ethics test, and since i'm always talking in the class about ethics and philosophy and shit, everyone in class expected me to get an A in class. i got an A/B which is higher than a B, but lower than an A. while others in class, who barely studied, got an A. so why didn't i get an A? when i was supposed to study, i ended up tutoring a friend of mine, Jillian, in class on the subject. so instead of reading things i needed to and reviewing my notes i was spending time with her. this completely messed me up. however, if i get this exact same grade in the final i'll get an A in the class so it wasn't a bad grade, just not the best one.

to make things worse, my friend jillian was telling me of this girl in class who barely understands english (she's from finland) and really needs help and asked me if i could devote like a day a week to tutor this girl. my time is already really split: on monday i have class from 9am-6pm with ONE 30 min break; and on wednesday i have class from 9am-12pm then I tutor from 1pm-3:30pm and i GET tutored from 3:30pm-6pm. on the other days if i don't get enough sleep i end up really freaking tired and don't get any work done until the weekend. and now she wants to take even more of my time. i'm barely making it as it is >_> i don't know what i'm going to do.

my spanish class has been going ok. i have been missing a lot of classes though so i have to be careful not to try to miss anymore. not only am i having a harder time understanding the material but i'm missing works in class that i'm sure have already taken away quite a bit from my grade. although, i did get an A on my last test.

lastly, with my logic class, the material is getting harder, way harder. i'm barely able to keep up with all of my other classes. i usually don't have time to read the material beforehand so i just read it after class, which usually leaves me confused in class but i don't really have much of a choice in it. we were supposed to have a test this monday (in fact, i was supposed to have two tests, both of which were postponed for a week) but the class decided that we should postpone it for a week: something that i thought was stupid because the teacher said the material is only going to get harder. this one older chick was like "but if we apply ourselves..." and i was like uh...seriously bitch? you think that if we didn't apply ourselves in 5 weeks, now 6 weeks, we're really going to "apply ourselves" with harder material, in 4 weeks? uh yeah, don't think it's going to happen. but i suppose that all we can do is wait and see what happens.

i miss everyone so much this semester. i miss all of my friends that i care about so greatly. i want to hang out with them so much, and i never want to deal with a semester where the workload feels this fast ever again. i'm thinking about taking a speech class at ELACC so that i only have to take 12 units in fall(as opposed to the 15 i'd have to take) this would give me some freedom in fall to play and do what i want but winter would suck so hard. although i'd only have to do it for a month, and would have the other 4 months to hang out with my friends. i guess i've got some serious thinking to do.

i'm so stressed out lately. sometimes i wonder how i'm able to make it. as busy as i am this semester though, i look at all these relationships i'm building with people and i like them. i like feeling part of something. often times i often feel like i'm under appreciated and just like cut out, but it's cool just like seeing people time and time again week after week as opposed to the long gaps i have with some of my friends.

seven more weeks left in this hellish semester. let's see how i pull through.

one day, you wake up and you're 18. this level of responsibility is suddenly placed at your feet. you are legally an adult now, and certain responsibilities and expectations follow from that. you are not a child anymore, and you are expected (to some degree anyway) to fend for yourself. when i turned 18 i didn't feel much different. i wasn't suddenly responsible.

i started college this young, arrogant kid (i say kid because i started when i was 17) and now i come out this responsible adult? i look at myself now, and i don't see myself anymore. i see this individual who actually does what needs to be done, studies on time, goes to class nearly daily, does fairly well on his exams, and is probably spending his last year at community college this year. the countdown is starting. naturally there are still a few things i need to take care of (for example, i need to make a copy of one of my classmates discs for spanish class since i lost mine ) but for the most part everything is falling into place.

what amazes me the most is actually going to class daily. this is my 5th semester, and this is the only semester so far where i haven't consistently been missing a day a week. last semester even when i had only three class (two once every two days, and the other once every two days) i still managed to miss one class a week even when i went to class for only an hour. i'm not doing that anymore, i like going to school, and i like my teachers; i like my classmates, i like the position i'm in right now. sure there's other things i need to work on (such as managing my relationships with my friends) but even that looks like it's currently falling into place.

every wednesday, i go to tutoring for my biology class. the guy who tutors us is this really cool guy who knows a shit ton about science. it's usually these three other girls and i, two of whom are my age, and the other is around sixty. however, i feel like we're all building these close relationships with each other. these are relationships i want to keep building upon. even though the work load is big, even though on mondays and wednesdays i spend nine hours a day at school, i can honestly say that i'm happy. there was a point in time where because of some internal struggles i was going through, i couldn't leave school any later than 1pm. and none of my classes surpassed that time. then i had to really learn how to get my study habits down (something i'm still working on, but something that seems to be working out well), and now i'm learning how to become responsible by going to my classes daily. this may sound like something that's very simple, and that most people do without even a second thought, but it's a big milestone for me, and i'm glad that i'm now able to do it.

i started college with my sister. the both of us have finished our two years here. we've both had our struggles, but i feel like i'm moving ahead, and she's still staying behind. today for example, i found out that i'm halfway done with work that won't be do for a week (work which i hope to finish tomorrow) and am completely done with work that won't be due until thursday. i've also finished some other work i had. i didn't do as good as i would have liked to on an important test i had today, but even with that, things still seem to be going good and looking up; my sister on the other hand told me that she had a test today that she had to read over 100 pages for, and that she wasn't doing so good in her stats class. as sad as this is to me, there's little i can do to influence it. any argument i make falls on deaf ears with her. but i suppose that's to be expected.

i have no idea if there's anything specifically causing all this good fortune heading my way, or if it's all just coincidence. and to be honest, i don't really care. i'm just here and i need to finish what i need to finish. that's all that can be said about it. either i will or won't, that's reality. i'll simply do what i can; nothing more, nothing less.

last week i heard that my spanish class was canceled so i ended up going to starbucks. although, there's this rule that say that you're supposed to wait till 20 min after class to leave (it was 8:11) so i wasn't sure if the teacher actually canceled or if she was just late. she actually did cancel though, so yay for me officially finishing my week with no missed classes! the first week i accidentally went to the wrong classroom. the second week i missed one of my spanish classes to complete a project for bio(something i found out later i didn't have to do) and last week class was canceled (although, the tutor in the class did some reviews, but since the teacher wasn't there i'm not counting it)

so today, i went to bio class. it seemed to be going ok, i worked friday and saturday with one of my group members on finishing the project. so last friday, i was supposed to meet up with the other three members of my group. apparently, one of my group members told me that the other two canceled, and that there'd be little point in meeting up. i said ok, and we ended up just doing what needed to be done online. however, today i talked to one of the girls in our group, and she said that he said that (yes, in college i'm in a "he said, she said" situation) he told her that he canceled. now, i'm more inclined to believe her because i asked him if he wanted to meet up with me and he said there'd be no point. something she claims he also told her. he could be telling the truth, but his story just seems off. only 3 of us were there, we thought that our fourth member didn't come. so we're in the lab working on our project and our 4th group member comes: 3 hours late! (the lab is 3 hours; lecture is 1 hour. so in total on mondays it's 4 hours) she claims she was in court. our teacher told us that it was our responsibility to teach her everything we learned. so i did it and i showed her everything i knew. she got a decent grasp of it. now, for whatever reason, only me and the other male member of our group (our group has two males and two females) have been doing all of the lab manuals. i don't know if he just thinks that the chicks are dumb, or what. but we've been doing all the work. this is going to change this week for sure. so eventually the teacher comes and is like wtf why are you 3 hours late? he then proceeds on giving us like a 15 minute lecture about how all of our group members need to learn how to do things for themselves (the girls in our group were basically observing me and him just doing all of the work; neither of them asked us "what do you want us to do?" or some like question) so he told them that if he saw them in class doing that again, he'd kick them both out. two make things worse, all of us forgot our lab manuals at home! except of course, for the other male in our group who brought his -- except all of the pages we needed from his lab manual were torn out. so this is just turning into a huge fail. i go to library to print out the copies i need only to realize that some asshat ripped the pages out of the library's lab manual. so we're completely screwed until some dude comes and joins our group and lends us his book. he left later on but he left his book with us. so eventually class ended and we all went our seperate ways, but clearly a bunch of BS went down today. i'm just glad that the day is over. i exchanged phone numbers with the other girl who's been consistently in class (so far i haven't missed one day of bio and i don't thinks he has either) because i'm pretty sure the other girl, who's hot (she has retardedly big tits), is going to drop the class.

ater bio was over, i went to jack in the box and talked to chander for a while about everything that was going down, but soon had to leave because i had class like 10 min for my symbolic logic class and i was already 30 min late (apparently we didn't do anything though) after that, i went to FAC and played $5 worth of DDR which is $6 in tokens. that is 12 games. i got an extra stage on roughly every game i played so in total i'd say i played around 50 songs. i looked at my phone and it was 7:52 (i probably got there 6:15) so i finished the last few games i had left, and probably left around 8:15. i went home, and other than some creepy guy who i felt wanted to rob me kind of following me, it went fine. but yeah, today was a long ass day, and i definitely won't be playing $5 worth of games at FAC anymore.

i'm exhausted. think i'm going to watch entourage and go to sleep.

one of the things i wish was that this summer wouldn't have been so long. i feel like i did so little in productivity. i've known for a long time that i can't get anything done at my house, and a bunch of the time i've just been here not doing anything. without a doubt though this is the most fun i've had of any summer i've ever experienced. my regrets purely rest on my lack of productivity and nothing else. i'm not the type of person who is easily self motivated. i realized that a long time ago, and have moved on.

the whole programming/Flash thing i seem to be done with. i haven't touched Flash in weeks i learned a good bit of actionscript, and i mastered the GUI, but just somewhere along the lines i lost my passion for the program, and even though i had quite a bit of fun with it, i had the same frustrations that i was having with PHP. i had all this knowledge, and no real creative projects to motivate myself with. and similarly with PHP, i gave it up(even though i know actionscript way better than i know PHP.)

t-minus 9 days until fall semester starts. t-minus 1 year until i transfer. i kind of wish that i didn't need to take any language classes so i could just take more interesting classes, but unfortunately i do, and there's nothing i can do about that (unless i just want to be really lazy and take no language classes which would limit my options to just calstates)

without a doubt though i'm definitely excited for my first day. this is going to be the beginning of year three. the classes i'm taking so far are Spanish, Ethics, and Bilogy. while i'm sure all of my classes will be fun, i expect spanish to be the most annoying (since people will expect me to know spanish) ethics to be the most fun (since i'm going to be taking it with a really funny and good philosophy teacher i've taken before) and bio i expect to be the most surprising. i'm also thinking about taking a speech class, this is something that if i do i'm going to need to do soon. i also need to go buy my books. i think i'm going to buy most of them tomorrow, and i've already bought the speech book.

there are some very interesting people i've met at LACC(and also one or two interesting people at West LA) some of them i'd like to continue to keep in touch with, but there are others that i'd like to get involved with on a more personal level. i hope i have the opportunity to meet and catch up with those people, and hopefully make them a bigger part of my life.

so yesterday i went to school to fill out some final forms for financial aid. i hate that i have to do this crap every year (even though i've never actually done it myself, heh; i usually get my sister to do it) so i waited in line, for half an hour, got two forms, filled them out, waited for my ticket to be called. filled out a box of another form, signed it, and i was done.

i was going to stop at jack in the box for some food but on the way there i ran into my friend Richard who i hadn't seen in ages. we started talking asking each other about how our lives had been. he said that he had got into the club scene and that he met his girlfriend there (who from what he was telling me was a nympho and a crazy bitch) so we were just talking about random stuff for a while and then he had to catch the metro so we split up.

after eating, i decided that i should finish my philosophy that i was reading. so i went to the school library and i finished it. i only had like 3 pages to go lol. i finished the whole chapter on Determinism and Free Will. i just read all of them though, i didn't actually go into deep study of it by taking notes, so i'm sure there are some things that i missed. some of it was very straight forward, and other stuff was kind of difficult to understand, but i got most of it.

after leaving school when i was almost on the way home, dustin called me. he wanted to go to keystone so we met up at USC. i saw his new GTO, and i must say it's a very nice car. very fast. he loves it to death (as can be expected) we pick up my sister on the way and we're off. when we get to keystone, the machine still isn't there so we head to wienerschnitzel to grab some food. while we're there we decide to go hang out with this chick named Bonny. she went to the same school as us for a while, but i never really talked to her. this was my first time really hanging out with her and she's really cool. she also apparently knows the keystone people. i wonder if it's true what people say about being connected to every person around the world by six degrees. or maybe Los Angeles is just much smaller than it seems. so we were hanging out with her for a good while, much fun had at her house, and we left home at 11.

all in all it was a fun night. this whole summer has been really crazy. easily the most fun summer i've ever had. however, i think i've had my fill, and i can't wait for school to start later this month.