ineffablol

ineffablol @ 2009-12-29T12:36:00

2009-12-29T20:36:36Z

saw some other people were doing them so i'd guess i'll start too:

resolutions for 2009:

1) get a 4.0

i wasn't able to do it last year so i'm hoping that i'll be able to do it either this spring or the following fall.

haha no wasn't able to do this. technically i already did this in summer 08 when i took one class and got an A but i want to do this with at least 12 units. there's still next semester to do this i suppose : )

2) master how to use Flash

i originally tried learning PHP because i wanted to know some trade if i ended up moving to a college far away, i wanted to have some decent paying job to support myself. well, i eventually gave PHP up, and now i'm trying to learn flash. i'm doing a decent job of it(actionscript's going to be a bitch though >_> )

when i wrote this i didn't have any knowledge of actionscript other than it was going to be a super bitch to learn. i learned an asston about flash and completely mastered the GUIs for CS3 and CS4, although i came no where close to mastering actionscript. so i'll say i half did this.

3) lose 5-10lbs.

i want to lose a bit of weight, not that much weight, just like 5-10lbs, or maybe get a flat stomach. if i don't fall behind on school next semester(which i probably won't since reading should be much much less epic) i might join a gym.

haha no this was a big failure.

4) get back into PIU/ITG

i've been wanting to play ITG for a good while know(specifically keystone), and often too, but haven't been able to do so for lack of time, and PIU just isn't really worth it at $1 a game so i'll probably start going to UG more.

nope, again big failure.

5) balance school and a job

i've been wanting to do this for some time now, i'm still not really sure if i have the discipline to do it but i guess i'll see.

nope. unless you count the odd jobs i do for people on the side a job, which i wouldn't, this is also a failure.

6) take permit test and learn how to drive

haven't done this yet because...idk, don't really care tbh :p, but i should probably start.

this is a fail, but since i'm on break right now i want to start doing this in january. since my dad's almost done with the roof, it looks more likely to happen.

7) go to each WTF in 2009

i've missed a bunch of WTF's lately, so i'll want to go to all of them next year.

no, this was partly my fault, and partly because the WTFs got canceled.

8) go on a road trip cross country/to vegas

i totally wouldn't mind doing something awesome like this on spring break or something, but a random trip to vegas would be cool too.

yup, i went on the one in june : )

didn't do too good on a lot of these, i have to think of some better ones for 2010

ineffablol @ 2009-12-21T23:39:00

2009-12-22T07:39:51Z

this semester went like hell, but it's finally over. i think i'm finally starting to relax. easily this bio class made my life much much harder than it needed to be, but i'm glad i took it. because i had to put in extra work in the class, i made some good relationships with people in my class. i've definitely had lunch with much more of my classmates than i ever had before. it was a hard, but good semester.

at the end of november, i finally realized that i needed to do what i was trying to avoid the whole semester: i started studying like 8-10 hours a day. up until the end, i wasn't even on par. my workload was ridiculous, but fortunately it started to get easier as the semester began to come to an end. within this last month/month and a half, i easily put in over 300 hours of studying. if i would have done this from the beginning, then i would have been able to hang out with my friends, go to vegas trips, and the like. the reason i was trying to avoid this is because i don't live in the best neighborhood, and after a certain hour, the darker it gets the more likely i am to be assaulted/robbed so again, something i was trying to avoid. but in the end it was unavoidable. my dad would tell me every single day (he would pick me up from my bus stop) "stop coming late at night, it's dangerous" obviously i was aware of this, but when i say it was unavoidable i mean it. since my first semester at college, i have found it extremely difficult to study at home. so what do i do? i don't study at home, because when i do i just get on my computer, facebook, play games, etc. there are few distractions when i'm out and about (just my phone, but i put it on silent with no vibration anyway so it isn't that big of a distraction)

my finals were interesting. i took my symbolic logic final first. the day before the final i found myself just conquering all of the problems which left me baffled weeks earlier. somehow, all the concepts suddenly made sense now. the exam was at 5pm, and i got to campus at 9:00am, i had a huge time to review. i ended up reading most of what i needed to read by noon, and i took my test early at 1:00pm. my teacher's already given me my grade for the class, i got an A. this was a very difficult class. my brother was telling me that symbolic logic has one of the highest fail rates in berkeley. i'm not too surprised. i bet a lot of philosophy majors are expecting to just do a bunch of interesting reading, and then they're hit by logic. it's pretty funny i imagine.

i got suckered into studying with a friend of mine on monday. i'm sorry, i have misstated myself. i said "studying." that what she called it. what it was in reality was me teaching her. she wasted like 3 crucial hours of my time just going over concepts i already knew. funny thing is, i almost felt like she felt we were helping each other out. she said something like "it helps you studying because by you teaching me it shows that you know the concepts." i was like yeah not really bitch. so i do that, until i've just had my fill. after i was done i asked her to drop me off, and she looked at me with this face like "did you seriously just ask me to drop you off?" to which she declined and left me back at school. i definitely won't let myself get pushed around by anyone next semester into doing something that i don't want to do. life lesson learned i guess. unfortunately, because i wasn't able to study as i should have, i didn't do as good on the final as i would have liked, but i suppose there's nothing that can be done about that other than to never do it again.

final number 3 was spanish. the final was actually pretty easy, all i had to do was write a brief essay about my favorite person in spanish. i finished the final in around 15 min. the day before the final i spent most of the time finishing my work book, which since i was doing it on my computer took my several hours to do. then i did a brief essay, but i think the final went good.

after my spanish final, i went and studied with my classmate sheva for this class. she works really well at studying, and keeping the eyes on the prize so to speak. unlike studying with the girl from philosophy, i felt that sheva was actually giving me something back rather than draining me. surprisingly, my biology final was extremely easy (without a doubt the easiest exam of the semester) so i'm glad that i finished it with no problems.

this semester was extremely difficult, not only because of my hard classes, but because i also had to apply several times to several different schools. shit was not easy.

one more semester to go and i'm done. can't wait until february starts ^.^

7 hour days

2009-12-06T06:26:40Z

are starting to become the norm. maybe two weeks ago i decided to start studying late at USC again as i did a year ago, because if i didn't i'd be failing all, or most, of my classes right now. this is something i tried to avoid in the beginning of the semester, and hence why i didn't see a lot of my friends this semester, because i don't live in the best area, and it isn't in my interest to come home at that time. but it isn't in my interest to fail all of my classes this semester either. why is this semester so stressful? biology. BI-fucking-OLOGY.

so let me just give you a quick run-down of what's been happening with that class:

i had one test last wednesday, i have another test for the lab in biology tomorrow(final lab practicum), then one week from that i have the final. on non-test related material, i have to hand write three lab reports (each of which takes around 3 hours) and i've finished one so far and they're due in my scientific notebook tomorrow. remember that this is all just for one class! i have obligations with my other classes as well but if i wasn't putting this class at a higher priority than my other classes there's no doubt i'd have dropped it by now or i'd be failing it.

in addition to this, i have to read an additional two chapters for the final. but i also have to do things for my other classes:

for spanish class i have homework, a presentation, lab work, as well as in class projects, and an essay. i also have to finish the lab for this class.

and for ethics i have to finish reading an entry by kant and thompson (which i'm very interested in both seeing as i'm a philosophy major but i haven't had much time to read either)

lastly i have to review for my symbolic logic class. all of this in one week!

it's been like this all semester, and i just have one more week of class left. i cannot wait to wind down.

on non-stressful news, i sold one my old computer to my cousin and with the money i bought a sound card and a mouse. the mouse is a Razer Deathadder 3500 and cost my around $60. the sound card is an HT OMEGA 7.1 Striker 7.1 and cost me $90. with tax and shipping it was around $170. the mouse is amazing. it has a backlight in it that slowly turns off and which illuminates the razer sign, it's very accurate and has 5 buttons. making the switch to it from my trackball is difficult but i'm getting used to it. i instantly noticed the difference with my sound card, it sounds freaking amazing. unfortunately i had to remove the back panel to install it (i tried a bunch of times, the shit would not fit) but it sounds great. also stopped getting BSODs once i updated the drivers. all in all, i'm proud of my purchase.

i also mailed in a rebate i had today for my powersupply (crap was $160 D: )so i should get $30 back from that. if i do, i'll either by some zune headphones (i haven't used my zune in months and i broke the original ones that came with it. the original ones were amazing and i don't want to use any other type ) or i'll buy myself the webcam i bought my sister (she said it works way better than the webcam i lent her even though they both cost the same price)after i buy a new webcam all i'll need is a new processor and i'll be completely done with my computer upgrades! well...that is, until i decide to get a new case and a new motherboard. then, i'll be done lol.

while i bought some presents with paypal (which i never use) it didn't work. i decided to log into it today to see what the problem was and my paypal is linked to my old wamu account (and wamu doesn't exist anymore) so i have to readd my bank account with paypal.

one more week for this semester to be over, can't wait! :D

ineffablol @ 2009-12-04T21:12:00

2009-12-03T05:13:01Z

so that chick i really like in my biology class, actually is pregnant. it kind of sucks because i'm really starting to like her. i don't think she has a BF right now, and i'm still thinking about dating her. she has this like odd mix of personality traits which i think blend pretty well, although there were a few awkward moments today between her and i:

she made a racial joke saying that the drawing that the tutor made had "nigger lips" to which no one said anything to. she also got mad at me because i joked about disecting kittens, something she said was "not funny." but i'm really starting to like this girl more and more every day, and unless i'm completely blind, the feelings are mutual.

next wednesday we're supposed to be throwing a little potluck for our teacher's birthday. it should be really fun. i had a little heart to heart with him. he came in the U.S. when he was 14 apparently out of chance because his parents were good bakers apparently. and at some point his parents abandoned him and he had to stay in the U.S. on his own. he's come really far since then. he also used to have a huge love for basketball apparently. and he used to play for hours and hours a day. i kind of believe him too with the way he is about doing things.

he told me today as i was waiting for my classmates to finish the class that i was going to fail the class. i was like "WHAT!?" he was joking but said that my group members sucked, something which i already know. he didn't have my test back today, but he should have it done by tomorrow so i'll see how it goes.

spanish class is starting to get really really difficult as well. all this work is piling up and i have to get it done within a small time frame. looks like i'm going to be having two more full weeks of 8 hour days, and then...FINALS

i have one final at 9:30am-11:30am on monday for biology, and later that day i have another final from 5:00pm-7:00pm for symbolic logic

on tuesday i have a final for ethics, and finally on wednesday i have a final for spanish, and then i'm done.

if i mess up and get really terrible marks this semester, i might as well go ahead and wave by to any UCs i hope to apply to. i have to be very careful in these next two weeks, this will be the most important semester in college i'll probably take in undergrad, and i have to be careful not to make any mistakes that are too big.

awesome day yesterday

2009-11-26T16:53:27Z

so yesterday i got to my spanish class and i completely forgot that we were going to have a potluck so i didn't bring anything. felt really bad but no one seemed to make a big deal. had some cool conversation with this dude in class who i had never really spoken to before about him working vallet at the grove, school, and other stuff. it was cool

after that was over, i went to the science building to go over some of the homework problems with my classmates. once in class the teacher was giving the lecture and someone knocked on the door; when i went to open it he said "DON'T open the door" so i didn't. thought he was being kind of a dick but i guess he didn't want to be interrupted.

after that, i took a short break and hung out for a while, was reading some UC article that i posted on facebook and then went to the Office of Special Services to help tutor some people. so i'm in there and i'm just hanging out. Inside there's this really really cute girl inside. she seems really nice too. so we're all hanging out and they ask me if i want to help some foreigners with ESL. i thought cool i wouldn't mind helping people with grammar. so they give me like this salvadorian lady and it was bad lol. i didn't factor in how bad my spanish was and...certain words i just didn't know lol. i was able to use a computer to google things though and explain the concepts to her, so it went ok. although, next door this guy was helping a blind lady with philosophy which i much much rather would have done(seeing as i am a philosophy major : D ). so when i was helping this lady, i was saying an anthill and i said "arrmiga" or something, whereas it's actually pronounced "hormiga" so i said it odd but eventually she understood what i meant. sessions were only supposed to last 50 minutes and i had already spent an hour and ten minutes with her, so we wrapped things up. i kind of felt bad for her because she took a shit ton of notes and she just wasn't getting the concepts. her words were really hard though, i have to admit. once i went outside, this girl was just like "i saw you trying to say ant inside there." i was like "oh... >.>" she was like "let me hear you say it again?" i was like "uh..." and after thinking about it for a few moments i said it correctly. she said she thought it was cute to see me try to pronounce the word. i was just like lol. shortly after that i got my stuff and left.

next i went to go get tutored myself. i go inside and say hi to everyone. my teacher and my tutor were all talking shit to me because i said i was interested in philosophy and philosophy was bullshit and science was where the answers were at. i was just like "you do know science is based on philosophy right?" they were like "NO!" i was just like "LOL" so we get to tutoring and start talking. the guy who was tutoring us was wearing an awesome shirt that said "Pat McCrotch(if you don't get the joke, say it out loud)"

there's this girl in tutoring who's been going lately and everytime i see her i'm starting to have more and more of a crush on her. i mean she's cute and all, but my biggest turn on from her would probably be her confidence. she's so confident with whatever she says. in tutoring she was getting all the answers spot on to the questions the tutor was asking us. i was just like "wow, you really know this stuff" to which she winked at me and was like "yeah ;)" i thought that was so awesome. the one big problem with her is that she may have latina syndrome (any of you who know latina's know that they get pregnant really fast apparently) so i think she might be pregnant. the reason why is one time in tutoring, she like tapped her stomach and was like "wow, my baby is hungry" to which i was like "oh..." so that would suck if she was, but if she isn't she's definitely someone i'd like to ask out to lunch or the movies or something.

after tutoring was over, these two other girls i tutored with asked if any of us wanted to go to grab dinner with them. i joined them at el pollo loco and we just ate our food, talked about our majors, complained about our teacher, and had many good laughs. this went on for about an hour and a half until we all decided to leave. it was very fun however, and i'm glad i had lunch with them.

when i came home i was exhausted, and i just wanted to sleep. i think i stayed on facebook, twitter, and irc for a while and then i just went to sleep in my warm bed. i really enjoyed yesterday.

like i've been saying, i really enjoy these relationships that i've been building with all of these people. i'm kind of sad that we'll only be doing it for two more weeks when fall semester ends. i kind of don't want it to end. i like wednesdays so much. at the same time however, this semester has been destroying me and i just want to be done with it. i guess i'll see how things go.

happy thanksgiving everyone!

ineffablol @ 2009-11-20T20:33:00

2009-11-21T04:33:31Z

a few days ago in spanish class two of my classmates (whose names i know) forgot my name. one of them called me marco lol. made me not feel so bad seeing as i completely forgot two of my classmates names. one of the girls whose names i forgot seems to have a big crush on me. pretty sure i caught her in class like staring at me once. i'm not attracted to her like at all though, but it's whatever. i saw her on the bus and i waved high. she was walking really close to some guy so i assumed he was her BF (she also told the professor that she was pregnant too) i thought it would be rude of me to see her and not say hi, so i tapped her on the shoulder and said hi. i instantly regretted it. her BF just gave me this look like "who the fuck are you and why are you talking to my girl??" i was just like "uh...>.>" tweeted about how awkward it was and went my own way.

yesterday i was pretty exhausted. i did a bunch of stuff:

i got out of my ethics class and started talking to my teacher. he said he didn't have much time to talk so i asked if he knew when my logic professor was going to be done with class. he said "he'll be in his office when he's done" i said "his office or your office?" because they share an office; he said "our office." so i said "so he'll be in our office when he's done." realizing he was corrected, he said "he'll be in his part of our office when he's done" i just laughed and we went our seperate ways.

first i talked to my logic teacher. he said he didn't have my exam yet but he'd email me when he got a chance to grade it. i ended up getting a C on the exam. i got a B on the first exam (80 points) a C on this second exam (70 points) and i need a total of 210 points to pass the class with at least a C. i also have 40 extra credit points, so i only need 20 more points to pass the class which i'm pretty sure i'll be able to get before class is over :D although, these concepts are really hard >.<

next i went to go print out my homework for biology. after that i went to go talk to my spanish teacher. she said because i had 9 absences, she had to lower my grade by one letter grade and that if i missed any more grades, and didn't turn in my lab notebook (which i haven't started yet at all lol) and that's assuming i do well on my tests and the rest of my essays.

next i went to tutoring. my tutor gave me a brief but very helpful guide on how to start my essay and what she expects from me. he recommended that i register for my classes as soon as possible, so i got into this epic long line, and to get my classes registered for spring. while in line i was talking to this girl, i was being pretty social with her. she was kind of cute, but she was one of those girls who like moves her shirt around every 3 seconds because she thinks your staring at her cleavage. so i got to talking about her, we were talking about school, our majors, teachers, etc. i asked her if she'd ever plan on leaving out of state and she said it wasn't an option because she had a kid. i didn't want to be the type of guy who was like "well now that i know that we're not going to do it, later..." so i continued to talk to her even though i thought she should have told me earlier (we had been talking for over and hour when she told me) so we talked and eventually when we got into the office we went our seperate ways.

i talked to my counselor and he said that i could register for my classes at 3pm that day, and what a coincidence it was that as soon as i entered his office it was 3:01pm. so he told me to get to any computer asap and start registering, which i did and i now have all of my classes registered for spring.

after that, i went to the transfer center and i wanted to make sure i had everything finalized. i was mainly talking to this girl in there who's pretty cool. she's majoring in computer science. she's freaking nuts, she told me that she was in calculus 3 already. i was just like christ. the funny thing is that she works in the transfer center but she hasn't finished her application yet. so i told her i'd come back in and check on her to see if she finished it. after we finished adding everything she asked if i wanted my personal statement read. i asked her what she'd recommend and she said that she heard that the worst thing to do is to submit your statement without having someone proof read it, so i told her that i'd like them to proof read it. she said to come back on monday, so i'll go back on monday to see what they said and to see if she finished her personal statement : )

after that, i went to FAC for a while because i seriously needed to wind down ( at this point i had just been doing school related business for like 5 hours) so i went there and i saw zaroug playing DDR with some guy. they left when i got there and i played a few games, and then they came back. when i was leaving i said goodbye to her and we talked for a bit, then i left home.

today i went to study at USC. i was so lost with my logic problems that i spent like an hour on 1 problem (and i didn't get it right) not because i don't know the rules (i know all 18 of them) but because i'm not sure how to critcally apply them all to one another well enough to solve the problems. so i planned on staying there till later tonight but my phone had died which kind of forced me to leave early. but i just got my phone charger back from my sister's house so hopefully it will charge better now.

i should probably get started on my essay now, and finish up some bio HW. can't wait till december is over so i can catch up with some old friends who i care about, and who i've missed so much <33

today

2009-11-17T02:58:48Z

so i have to major tests today, both of which are extremely difficult. i have several assignments that are due that didn't get done, so as i'm leaving home i'm about to tweet only to realize that my phone has 0 battery bars and will probably die very soon (it probably died 5 min after i checked it) so i move on, start reviewing for my bio class on the bus, get a decent bit done, and go to spanish class. wasn't able to get some spanish HW done, but the teacher gave us an opportunity to finish it in class. so i worked on it and got most of it done, but i needed to leave for my test and the class time was already over. so i ask my teacher if i can turn it in tomorrow because i have a test today and she said yes, so i left for my test.

i met up with a bunch of kids studying in the tables in the science building. everyone was going through their notes for the bio test, and sooner than later we have to leave for the test. as i'm on my way there i ask these two girls who i go to tutoring with how the test was. one of them goes "uhnnnnnnn............." i'm like "oh fuck..." that came from the girl who usually does very well on the tests. so i go take the tests, don't do too bad on the multiple choice and start working on the essay questions. now, since i go to tutoring i kind of have a step up of all the other kids who don't go (of the maybe 120-200 kids, only around 5-10 of us go to tutoring; usually it's more like 5 though) so i didn't have trouble on the essay questions, except, for the first time in my life: i actually ran out of time on a test and didn't finish it. i couldn't believe it. i was so close to completely finishing it. there was no part of the test where i was simply blankly staring at the test, i was writing my ass off. however, some parts of the test were extremely time consuming, and as i was finishing my last problem, the timer rang and the professor said "that's it guys, turn your work in." maybe 14 out of the total 22 students were still working when the buzzer rang. trust me, this wasn't just an issue with me, it was an issue with everyone. that just goes to show you how retardedly large the workload of this class is. outside, there were students who told me that they skipped one or two essay questions (i answered all of the first 5 and part of the last one which was the one i ran out of time on.) when we were complaining to the teacher that we didn't have enough time, his response was priceless: "hey man, life's a bitch" at one point during the test when one of the girls i study with was explaining her frustration to him, he made his hand into a gun, pointed it to his head and pulled the trigger. even he knew how retarded it was haha. so i finished the test, i got no break because the buzzer ran out, then we went to lab. at lab i was working on trying to figure out why the hell the microscope wasn't working with the slide. at the end of class i finally figured out why: i wasn't using "oil immersion" i was using "oil immersion...remover) i completely missed the remover part which was why my image instead of being crystal clear was as fuzzy looking as it was, i was exhausted.

after class, i talked to my symbolic logic teacher and i reminded him that i was going to take the test tomorrow. i told him about how difficult my biology class was and he said "if you need more time, let me know" i told him while tomorrow would be great, wednesday would be amazing, and he said it was cool. so he let me postpone the test by two days, a test i'm studying right now for. thank fucking god for understanding teachers.

i went to get a slice of pizza and was going to go out to study and have my brother pick me up later, when i realized that my phone was dead and there was no way that i could call him, so i just went straight home, and i've been trying to wind down since i've been here.

this bioclass is a 4 unit class that feels like a 6 unit class, it's so hard. i can't wait till next month is over and i'm done with this class.

ineffablol @ 2009-11-06T20:45:00

2009-11-07T05:04:23Z

my last blog post was really optimistic, talking about how everything was going great. litterally the next day after i made that post, everything went to shit: all of my work caught up with me ridiculously, and i was struggling to get on par, just trying to get in the same level with everyone else. i eventually did it, but i'm not taking that chance again

in my bio class, on what i call "hell week," i call it that because it was one incredibly hard test followed by another incredibly hard test. one on monday, and one on wednesday, but we also had to hand write in our scientific notebooks out labs(which took 3 hours each) as well as finish our homeworks, and do the normal lab paper we have to submit every week. as i said, hell week. so normally, there are 60 points up for grabs weekly (40 from the homework, 20 for the lab) this week there was 340 (20 points = 1% of the class, so this was 17 % of our total grade in one week, as opposed to the 3% we get normally) not to mention that class was rushed, and in general it was just a really huge mess. i didn't study for the midterm, and i got a 69 on it (one point away from a C, but since it's a point system i'm not too worried) this is without a doubt the class with the biggest workload i've ever taken. it says 4 units but it feels like 6.

i had my ethics test, and since i'm always talking in the class about ethics and philosophy and shit, everyone in class expected me to get an A in class. i got an A/B which is higher than a B, but lower than an A. while others in class, who barely studied, got an A. so why didn't i get an A? when i was supposed to study, i ended up tutoring a friend of mine, Jillian, in class on the subject. so instead of reading things i needed to and reviewing my notes i was spending time with her. this completely messed me up. however, if i get this exact same grade in the final i'll get an A in the class so it wasn't a bad grade, just not the best one.

to make things worse, my friend jillian was telling me of this girl in class who barely understands english (she's from finland) and really needs help and asked me if i could devote like a day a week to tutor this girl. my time is already really split: on monday i have class from 9am-6pm with ONE 30 min break; and on wednesday i have class from 9am-12pm then I tutor from 1pm-3:30pm and i GET tutored from 3:30pm-6pm. on the other days if i don't get enough sleep i end up really freaking tired and don't get any work done until the weekend. and now she wants to take even more of my time. i'm barely making it as it is >_> i don't know what i'm going to do.

my spanish class has been going ok. i have been missing a lot of classes though so i have to be careful not to try to miss anymore. not only am i having a harder time understanding the material but i'm missing works in class that i'm sure have already taken away quite a bit from my grade. although, i did get an A on my last test.

lastly, with my logic class, the material is getting harder, way harder. i'm barely able to keep up with all of my other classes. i usually don't have time to read the material beforehand so i just read it after class, which usually leaves me confused in class but i don't really have much of a choice in it. we were supposed to have a test this monday (in fact, i was supposed to have two tests, both of which were postponed for a week) but the class decided that we should postpone it for a week: something that i thought was stupid because the teacher said the material is only going to get harder. this one older chick was like "but if we apply ourselves..." and i was like uh...seriously bitch? you think that if we didn't apply ourselves in 5 weeks, now 6 weeks, we're really going to "apply ourselves" with harder material, in 4 weeks? uh yeah, don't think it's going to happen. but i suppose that all we can do is wait and see what happens.

i miss everyone so much this semester. i miss all of my friends that i care about so greatly. i want to hang out with them so much, and i never want to deal with a semester where the workload feels this fast ever again. i'm thinking about taking a speech class at ELACC so that i only have to take 12 units in fall(as opposed to the 15 i'd have to take) this would give me some freedom in fall to play and do what i want but winter would suck so hard. although i'd only have to do it for a month, and would have the other 4 months to hang out with my friends. i guess i've got some serious thinking to do.

i'm so stressed out lately. sometimes i wonder how i'm able to make it. as busy as i am this semester though, i look at all these relationships i'm building with people and i like them. i like feeling part of something. often times i often feel like i'm under appreciated and just like cut out, but it's cool just like seeing people time and time again week after week as opposed to the long gaps i have with some of my friends.

seven more weeks left in this hellish semester. let's see how i pull through.

ineffablol @ 2009-10-05T23:23:00

2009-10-06T06:40:37Z

one day, you wake up and you're 18. this level of responsibility is suddenly placed at your feet. you are legally an adult now, and certain responsibilities and expectations follow from that. you are not a child anymore, and you are expected (to some degree anyway) to fend for yourself. when i turned 18 i didn't feel much different. i wasn't suddenly responsible.

i started college this young, arrogant kid (i say kid because i started when i was 17) and now i come out this responsible adult? i look at myself now, and i don't see myself anymore. i see this individual who actually does what needs to be done, studies on time, goes to class nearly daily, does fairly well on his exams, and is probably spending his last year at community college this year. the countdown is starting. naturally there are still a few things i need to take care of (for example, i need to make a copy of one of my classmates discs for spanish class since i lost mine ) but for the most part everything is falling into place.

what amazes me the most is actually going to class daily. this is my 5th semester, and this is the only semester so far where i haven't consistently been missing a day a week. last semester even when i had only three class (two once every two days, and the other once every two days) i still managed to miss one class a week even when i went to class for only an hour. i'm not doing that anymore, i like going to school, and i like my teachers; i like my classmates, i like the position i'm in right now. sure there's other things i need to work on (such as managing my relationships with my friends) but even that looks like it's currently falling into place.

every wednesday, i go to tutoring for my biology class. the guy who tutors us is this really cool guy who knows a shit ton about science. it's usually these three other girls and i, two of whom are my age, and the other is around sixty. however, i feel like we're all building these close relationships with each other. these are relationships i want to keep building upon. even though the work load is big, even though on mondays and wednesdays i spend nine hours a day at school, i can honestly say that i'm happy. there was a point in time where because of some internal struggles i was going through, i couldn't leave school any later than 1pm. and none of my classes surpassed that time. then i had to really learn how to get my study habits down (something i'm still working on, but something that seems to be working out well), and now i'm learning how to become responsible by going to my classes daily. this may sound like something that's very simple, and that most people do without even a second thought, but it's a big milestone for me, and i'm glad that i'm now able to do it.

i started college with my sister. the both of us have finished our two years here. we've both had our struggles, but i feel like i'm moving ahead, and she's still staying behind. today for example, i found out that i'm halfway done with work that won't be do for a week (work which i hope to finish tomorrow) and am completely done with work that won't be due until thursday. i've also finished some other work i had. i didn't do as good as i would have liked to on an important test i had today, but even with that, things still seem to be going good and looking up; my sister on the other hand told me that she had a test today that she had to read over 100 pages for, and that she wasn't doing so good in her stats class. as sad as this is to me, there's little i can do to influence it. any argument i make falls on deaf ears with her. but i suppose that's to be expected.

i have no idea if there's anything specifically causing all this good fortune heading my way, or if it's all just coincidence. and to be honest, i don't really care. i'm just here and i need to finish what i need to finish. that's all that can be said about it. either i will or won't, that's reality. i'll simply do what i can; nothing more, nothing less.

very long day

2009-09-22T06:10:32Z

last week i heard that my spanish class was canceled so i ended up going to starbucks. although, there's this rule that say that you're supposed to wait till 20 min after class to leave (it was 8:11) so i wasn't sure if the teacher actually canceled or if she was just late. she actually did cancel though, so yay for me officially finishing my week with no missed classes! the first week i accidentally went to the wrong classroom. the second week i missed one of my spanish classes to complete a project for bio(something i found out later i didn't have to do) and last week class was canceled (although, the tutor in the class did some reviews, but since the teacher wasn't there i'm not counting it)

so today, i went to bio class. it seemed to be going ok, i worked friday and saturday with one of my group members on finishing the project. so last friday, i was supposed to meet up with the other three members of my group. apparently, one of my group members told me that the other two canceled, and that there'd be little point in meeting up. i said ok, and we ended up just doing what needed to be done online. however, today i talked to one of the girls in our group, and she said that he said that (yes, in college i'm in a "he said, she said" situation) he told her that he canceled. now, i'm more inclined to believe her because i asked him if he wanted to meet up with me and he said there'd be no point. something she claims he also told her. he could be telling the truth, but his story just seems off. only 3 of us were there, we thought that our fourth member didn't come. so we're in the lab working on our project and our 4th group member comes: 3 hours late! (the lab is 3 hours; lecture is 1 hour. so in total on mondays it's 4 hours) she claims she was in court. our teacher told us that it was our responsibility to teach her everything we learned. so i did it and i showed her everything i knew. she got a decent grasp of it. now, for whatever reason, only me and the other male member of our group (our group has two males and two females) have been doing all of the lab manuals. i don't know if he just thinks that the chicks are dumb, or what. but we've been doing all the work. this is going to change this week for sure. so eventually the teacher comes and is like wtf why are you 3 hours late? he then proceeds on giving us like a 15 minute lecture about how all of our group members need to learn how to do things for themselves (the girls in our group were basically observing me and him just doing all of the work; neither of them asked us "what do you want us to do?" or some like question) so he told them that if he saw them in class doing that again, he'd kick them both out. two make things worse, all of us forgot our lab manuals at home! except of course, for the other male in our group who brought his -- except all of the pages we needed from his lab manual were torn out. so this is just turning into a huge fail. i go to library to print out the copies i need only to realize that some asshat ripped the pages out of the library's lab manual. so we're completely screwed until some dude comes and joins our group and lends us his book. he left later on but he left his book with us. so eventually class ended and we all went our seperate ways, but clearly a bunch of BS went down today. i'm just glad that the day is over. i exchanged phone numbers with the other girl who's been consistently in class (so far i haven't missed one day of bio and i don't thinks he has either) because i'm pretty sure the other girl, who's hot (she has retardedly big tits), is going to drop the class.

ater bio was over, i went to jack in the box and talked to chander for a while about everything that was going down, but soon had to leave because i had class like 10 min for my symbolic logic class and i was already 30 min late (apparently we didn't do anything though) after that, i went to FAC and played $5 worth of DDR which is $6 in tokens. that is 12 games. i got an extra stage on roughly every game i played so in total i'd say i played around 50 songs. i looked at my phone and it was 7:52 (i probably got there 6:15) so i finished the last few games i had left, and probably left around 8:15. i went home, and other than some creepy guy who i felt wanted to rob me kind of following me, it went fine. but yeah, today was a long ass day, and i definitely won't be playing $5 worth of games at FAC anymore.

i'm exhausted. think i'm going to watch entourage and go to sleep.

ineffablol @ 2009-08-20T04:07:00

2009-08-20T11:13:42Z

one of the things i wish was that this summer wouldn't have been so long. i feel like i did so little in productivity. i've known for a long time that i can't get anything done at my house, and a bunch of the time i've just been here not doing anything. without a doubt though this is the most fun i've had of any summer i've ever experienced. my regrets purely rest on my lack of productivity and nothing else. i'm not the type of person who is easily self motivated. i realized that a long time ago, and have moved on.

the whole programming/Flash thing i seem to be done with. i haven't touched Flash in weeks i learned a good bit of actionscript, and i mastered the GUI, but just somewhere along the lines i lost my passion for the program, and even though i had quite a bit of fun with it, i had the same frustrations that i was having with PHP. i had all this knowledge, and no real creative projects to motivate myself with. and similarly with PHP, i gave it up(even though i know actionscript way better than i know PHP.)

t-minus 9 days until fall semester starts. t-minus 1 year until i transfer. i kind of wish that i didn't need to take any language classes so i could just take more interesting classes, but unfortunately i do, and there's nothing i can do about that (unless i just want to be really lazy and take no language classes which would limit my options to just calstates)

without a doubt though i'm definitely excited for my first day. this is going to be the beginning of year three. the classes i'm taking so far are Spanish, Ethics, and Bilogy. while i'm sure all of my classes will be fun, i expect spanish to be the most annoying (since people will expect me to know spanish) ethics to be the most fun (since i'm going to be taking it with a really funny and good philosophy teacher i've taken before) and bio i expect to be the most surprising. i'm also thinking about taking a speech class, this is something that if i do i'm going to need to do soon. i also need to go buy my books. i think i'm going to buy most of them tomorrow, and i've already bought the speech book.

there are some very interesting people i've met at LACC(and also one or two interesting people at West LA) some of them i'd like to continue to keep in touch with, but there are others that i'd like to get involved with on a more personal level. i hope i have the opportunity to meet and catch up with those people, and hopefully make them a bigger part of my life.

ineffablol @ 2009-08-06T12:50:00

2009-08-06T20:06:30Z

so yesterday i went to school to fill out some final forms for financial aid. i hate that i have to do this crap every year (even though i've never actually done it myself, heh; i usually get my sister to do it) so i waited in line, for half an hour, got two forms, filled them out, waited for my ticket to be called. filled out a box of another form, signed it, and i was done.

i was going to stop at jack in the box for some food but on the way there i ran into my friend Richard who i hadn't seen in ages. we started talking asking each other about how our lives had been. he said that he had got into the club scene and that he met his girlfriend there (who from what he was telling me was a nympho and a crazy bitch) so we were just talking about random stuff for a while and then he had to catch the metro so we split up.

after eating, i decided that i should finish my philosophy that i was reading. so i went to the school library and i finished it. i only had like 3 pages to go lol. i finished the whole chapter on Determinism and Free Will. i just read all of them though, i didn't actually go into deep study of it by taking notes, so i'm sure there are some things that i missed. some of it was very straight forward, and other stuff was kind of difficult to understand, but i got most of it.

after leaving school when i was almost on the way home, dustin called me. he wanted to go to keystone so we met up at USC. i saw his new GTO, and i must say it's a very nice car. very fast. he loves it to death (as can be expected) we pick up my sister on the way and we're off. when we get to keystone, the machine still isn't there so we head to wienerschnitzel to grab some food. while we're there we decide to go hang out with this chick named Bonny. she went to the same school as us for a while, but i never really talked to her. this was my first time really hanging out with her and she's really cool. she also apparently knows the keystone people. i wonder if it's true what people say about being connected to every person around the world by six degrees. or maybe Los Angeles is just much smaller than it seems. so we were hanging out with her for a good while, much fun had at her house, and we left home at 11.

all in all it was a fun night. this whole summer has been really crazy. easily the most fun summer i've ever had. however, i think i've had my fill, and i can't wait for school to start later this month.

ineffablol @ 2009-07-13T02:58:00

2009-07-13T10:09:42Z

on friday i decided that i should organize my room better, so i bought a big blue container and a small white container and threw clothes and trash in them (respectively) i still have some crap here (mainly blankets and some clothes and video games i need to give away) but i should be done cleaning it soon.

saturday was the bonfire. i was pretty bored in the beginning of it, and i was dozing off when someone tapped me on my shoulder. apparently, one of my old high school classmates, who i hadn't seen in maybe 4 years, recognized me. we were talking for a good bit of time about college, universities, and our futures. he's going to Calstate L.A. with his girlfriend and majoring in finance which i thought was cool. overall i enjoyed hanging out with him, but i almost felt like he was trying to counsel me. he clearly had the best intentions at heart, but maybe not the best execution. he's also one of those people who doesn't like to use computers because he feels that one can waste great amounts of time on them. so he doesn't use myspace or facebook, but we exchanged numbers. later in the day i started talking to Hush, Ian, and a couple of other people i normally don't speak very much with. when the sumo wrestling started happening, Hush challenged me and rushed me. i was so surprised by his speed he took me down easily. when i rechallenged him he also won. i played once more against dustin and this time i won. good times. i made the mistake of jumping in the water with Dustin. while it was very fun, i spent the good bit of an hour and a half just shivering. with dustin's quick thoughts, i warmed up next to the bonfire. when i took a shower at home, my hair smelled of firewood haha. it was pretty cool.

sunday i had lunch with Chandler and we also chilled and had some conversations while drinking coffee. i also had some fun playing this game called Section 8 which is apparently going to be the next big first person shooter. it really is fun, and i'll probably end up buying it.

don't know what the plans are for tomorrow yet, i'll probably go washing though because i am out of clothes.

ineffablol @ 2009-06-30T02:33:00

2009-06-30T09:46:26Z

so Dustin IMd me earlier in the day asking me if he could borrow my external. i said sure, but told him he'd have to pick me up. after much compromise, he picked me up at Jefferson and Vermont. we met about half way. as he was driving, he did this thing where he drove super close to the edge of cars. he did it once and got through it. the second time however...BAM! we crashed into the side car. three people were involved in total: Dustin, some old black dude, and some kinda old mexican dude. so the mexican dude gets out, and the old blak dude who dustin's car hit when he side swiped it and everyone was exchanging information. everyone thought it was all good and setlled until i pointed out one key piece of information(which i was contemplating not saying in the first place) the old black dude's van that dustin hit, the was parked in the red zone. it didn't have its emergency lights on or anything, the dude who owned it was old and probably parked there because it was right outside of his business. when i told them the old mexican dude went to see and it was indeed parked in the red zone. if it wouldn't have been there the accident likely could have been prevented. so dustin has to figure out what he wants to do about it i guess.

Dustin after calling a bunch of people finally got one of his cousins to get us towed with AAA which was pretty cool. when we got to his house, we tried to do some data back up and did it. but out of fucking no where, my hard drive decided to just die on me and all of his data was lost D:

today was definitely not Dustin's day.

after Dustin's house, we waited with fob because he wanted to go to a party so we hung out with him until some people picked him up, then chandler and i went to FAC where we played a good bit of Pump and DDR.

on the way home, i realized that all i had eaten all day was a bagel, and some popeye's chicken, and it was way past dinner time, so we stopped by subway where we ate and chatted which was pretty fun.

i think i might start going to FAC more often :D

ineffablol @ 2009-06-24T13:24:00

2009-06-24T20:27:51Z

sunday - went bowling with both of my brothers and my sister.

monday - went to FAC to play some ITG and PIU and watched Up with both of my brothers at The Bridge.

tuesday - went to go see the midnight showing of Transformers with Phil, Edgar, Chandler, and a few other people.

bleh, i'm bored today. i think i'm going to go play PIU / ITG at FAC again today.

very fun birthday

2009-06-17T07:54:31Z

the day seemed to start off a bit slow. i called chandler pretty early in the morning, but he didn't pick up, so i ended up thinking that my sister and i just might go somewhere to go get some food. so i'm just on at my house, searching the web, getting happy birthday comments from a bunch of people on facebook and some forums i post on, when my sister brings me a pizza she bought, some mesquite wings, a soda, and a hot dog. she took the day off apparently. so that was breakfast, and i was pretty happy with it. the day seemed to be starting off good. Chandler called me back eventually and we picked up my sister, and Fob Alex along the way.

the first thing we did was we went to CPK so that my sister, Fob Alex, and Chandler could get some breakfast. so we're eating and talking, and we tell the waitress that it's my birthday, so she comes out with a birthday sunday for me, and brings a candle which i thought was really nice. i offered everyone some of my sunday (the thoughtful waitress gave me four spoons) but everyone told me i should just eat it by myself. i made a wish (that we wouldn't all horribly die in an accident) and even though i told them the wish, it still came true :)

after CPK, we went to Diddy Riese where Chandler and fob bought some stuff. Since we still had a bit of time on the parking meter, we decided to walk to UCLA and see the arcade. unfortunately, both of the change machines were broken so we left soon after.

after westwood, we went back to thomas' house and were hanging out with him for a while. then, we went on a trip to a place in hollywood. as we passed some people protesting for iran, fob alex and chandler yelled "terrorists!" outside the window. i hid my face in shock. things didn't get much better in West L.A. with the homophobic remarks :(

when we finally got to hollywood, the place i wanted to show them was closed. as we were driving, out of a splurge we decided to go to the Griffith Observatory. it was my first time there and it was pretty fun. we saw a documentary on the history and remodeling of the building. it was really interesting.

as we were trying to leave the observatory, we found out that the exit that we were trying to take was blocked off. we were totally lost and had no idea how to get out. we made jokes about how i would be the first one to go crazy, and how one of us should go out and check outside by leaving the group, and so on. eventually, we found our way. Chandler turned his lights off as we were entering this tunnel but quickly turned them back on because it was ridiculously scary.

Next, we stopped off by the House of Pies where i had a delicious blueberry pie and some milk.

after that we called it a day, and i got dropped off. all in all, this is the most fun i've ever had for any birthday. i wish some of my other friends could have been there to join us but i suppose it can't be helped. as fun as this birthday was, i don't think it will compare at all to next year's birthday lol.

i'm still sore.

2009-06-13T17:54:28Z

after much pleading, i decided to go to keystone with Dustin yesterday. At first, i didn't really want to go because my body was extremely sore. we got there, we played some games, and...wtf my soreness went away. if i had known playing dancing games was a good way to alleviate my soreness, i would have been doing that shit since like Thursday lol. everybody was there from the maybe four and a half since we were there. among those who showed up were a bunch of keystone people i wasn't really familiar with (who are the new keystone community?) and it was maybe 8-9 of them. of the people i did know were Angie(ratgirl for those who get the reference lmao) Saku(Ratboy), CMG, Bernardo, Oscar, Luigi, and Nestor and a few other people. at that point though, the game started to get broken, and it got the the "you need to wait 45 min to play a game" time, so Dustin and I left soon after. i have to admit though, Luigi can make a good stepchart. and Dustin knows some really fun step charts. apparently everyone at keystone, or in the community in general, hates Vest. but that isn't that surprising. a couple of the keystone guys told me that i should try to get back into the game and play more. i told them i'd think about it, and i really will.

on the ride back home with Dustin, i told him one day that i'd like to move to New Haven to see how much i'd like living there. i lived there for a bit of time with my Brother, and i did like it. it's a bit too much of a college town though, it might just be a better idea to live in New York. i'm not sure if i'll ever be able to completely leave L.A., but i guess college will be a good way to see whether i'm the type of person who can leave or not. only one more year to go!

i think i might see if i can apply for a job at an apple store. i'll try to apply at the grove and at the one by the galleria and see if either one pics me up. i think i have the technical know-how :D

speech class starts this Monday. i'm glad i bought my book on wednesday because if i would have bought it on monday i would have had to wait there at least 2 hours, as opposed to the 20 minutes i waited.

ok

2009-06-10T04:38:44Z

so my oceanography final started at 9:30am, it ended at 11:30am. now, since it started one hour earlier than normal, i needed to leave my house at 8:30am. instead i woke up at 8:30am thinking that i woke up just on time. funny thing is, i woke up very suddenly, almost as if i needed to wake up. but, thinking that i was on time, i simply got ready like any other day. took my normal, half-an-hour shower, got on facebook for a while, was IMing a friend of mine, was about to brush my teeth when i saw that it was 9:17. i was thinking "oh it's 9-- doesn't my final start at 9:30?? OH FUCK!" so i got all of my shit and i left my house as fast as i could. as soon as the bus came, i checked my pants and, wait for it ladies and gentlemen: I FORGOT MY WALLET! so i had to walk all the way back home, and get it. as long as i was there i also decided to eat some cereal. i went back, got on the bus, and left. i got to class at around 10:30am. i saw my teacher and as she saw me she just wtfed. i said "professor, i had like the worst day ever today: my alarm clock was misset, and a bunch of other misfortune things happened" she was just like "you're over an hour late. you're really lucky, i was just about to leave." so she gave me the test and i knew a good amount of it. but in her syllabus it said that if you missed more than 2 days of class unexcused(i probably missed anywhere from 10-15 days of class unexcused) then she'd lower your final grade by one letter. i asked her if she was really going to do that, and, with a smile she said "how many days have you missed?" i simply responded "A LOT" lol. she said that if i earned an A she'd give it to me. and apparently i did, because she did. she gave me an A in the class W00T!! you guys should have seen the look of shock on my face when i saw the A. i literally couldn't believe it. after class i decided to celebrate by going to Langer's and i had a delicious pastrami sandwhich with Langer's Cream Soda. it was rather expensive but it was sooooo worth it.

today i went to keystone in the morning. i realized that i suck sooo much ass now at ITG xD. i couldn't even beat Lonely, something that three years ago i could beat like nothing. my stamina is freaking done lol. i do want to get back into the game, i seriously have forgotten how much fun it is to play. i saw dustin there too. he's really freaking good now. i wasn't able to stay for long because i had to finish fixing the computer at this my sister's friends house, but it was pretty awesome watching the laker game, and getting some good food.

as for tomorrow, i think i might stop by school and see if i can buy my book. i really don't think a one week vacation is enough, and it sucks ass that on my birthday, again, just like last year, i'm going to be in school. but not much can be done about it i guess.

now time for Fallout 3 :)

ineffablol @ 2009-06-05T16:01:00

2009-06-05T23:09:51Z

last final is this monday (for oceanography). if it wasn't just pure memorization, i might be a bit worried. might go through memorizing some of them today though.

my logic final went pretty good. i was talking to this very nice girl who was taking like 5 classes. she was all "um...so far i'm taking finals for logic, microbiology, physiology, philosophy one, and psychology" apparently she's going into nursing. she seemed pretty leet though in her work ethic. much more than me anyways. we were talking to each other for a bit and helped each other out before the final. since i had studied pretty hard for this test(which tested maybe 25% of everything i studied for) i finished way before her. as i was leaving, she said "good bye" which i thought was pretty bold of her since we're not supposed to be talking during tests. i said "goodbye. and goodluck." and i left. i wish i would have got her name.

tomorrow's going to be the Bonfire. i should be there if all goes well.

this semester seriously exhausted me. i'd like to take some time off(at least maybe summer) to just relax. i can't remember the last time i went to an arcade or keystone, and just played the whole day. i have to say, i really do miss it.

a second opinion on justice

2009-06-04T06:55:47Z

i was looking at chandler's LJ entry and i saw a tag that said "9/11" so i clicked it, and i saw an entry(click for link) with some old posts of mine from nearly three years ago.

my perspective has changed greatly within three years(probably because two of those years i've been in college) i think Hobbes said in Leviathan that justice is the will of giving each man his own. or something to that degree. my perspective on justice now is that it is a universal human feeling, and that clearly a majority of human beings feel emotions like outrage and helplessness when injustice is done to them. my opinion on it now is that it shouldn't influence the law however. the law should, and in my opinion must, be objective. we shouldn't punish someone because we feel pity or empathy for the person who's had injustice done to them, but because they've broken their social contract(which was also stated in Leviathan)

who knows if i'll keep this perspective however seeing as i've changed it from what it was 3 years ago. granted, i wasn't nearly as well educated then as i am now. i'm suspect my perspective on justice may change if i become a parent and i have a child or children, and my only real concern is to protect and care for him, her, or them.

logic final tomorrow, i still have a bit of review ahead of me and there are still a couple of fallacies i'm confusing with one another but i think i'll be ok.

saw all of season 1 for breaking bad today. great fucking show, i never knew chemistry could be so damn fucking interesting. they should come out with a game called The Chemist. watch Breaking Bad. that game would sell, i shit you not!

ineffablol @ 2009-05-31T11:29:00

2009-05-31T18:42:18Z

did some studying yesterday. not as much as i would have liked to have had done, but enough so that i wouldn't feel too bad about today. my cousin came over, and i was hanging out with him for a bit until he left. after that, i ended up going to another starbucks with chandler and we were just going through the list of fallacies. that was fun haha.

ended up going to Anthony's house for his pajama party and that was fun. we first started playing king's cup, and then some people continued to play some other board games. after Kings Cup, we played Twister, where Anthony was coming up with his own body parts for the colors: "left peck green; right thy blue, etc." super fun haha.

chandler ended up playing Drunken chess with some other dude, and we also did a chess problem. next was Cardinal. Fatguy, Chandler, this one dude named shawn(sp?), and Hush ended up becoming Cardinals. Jantzn and I were unable to haha.

when the song Shout! started playing, everyone started dancing to it in this big group haha.

i ended up playing Guess Who with Jantzn for a while, but he was asking absurd questions such as "is your person ugly," "would your person have sex with Franz"

that's all i can remember for now anyway, all in all it was definitely a fun night :D

ineffablol @ 2009-05-27T12:46:00

2009-05-27T19:56:30Z

while talking with my sister yesterday she said that she would let me borrow her car if i knew how to drive. ok, so i finally have some incentive on learning how to drive. looks like i'll get my dad to teach me soon. i should also probably go to the DMV and get all of the necessary info for my permit.

my sister's friend asked if i could take a look at her computer yesterday, so i went and took a look at it. it couldn't turn on, and i had no idea really why. i suspect the PSU, so imma stick a new one in there and see if it works. but since it uses a special one i'd have to get a new one specifically with DELL so that's going to suck.

i'm waiting for chandler right now to get some lunch. ahhhhh i'm fucking starving >:(

ineffablol @ 2009-05-23T23:28:00

2009-05-24T06:53:06Z

so i didn't do so great on my last test in my logic class. all of the really hard things i studied for, but i overlooked this really easy thing that i did really bad on. so this is the way the test was graded: 4 sections, 5 questions for each section, 20 questions in total worth 5 points each. 20x5 = 100.

on section 2 which was hard but i studied hard for, i got 0 wrong. on section 3 which was also hard, but i studied for, i got 0 wrong. on section 4, which i didn't study but didn't need to seeing as it was just identifying things that i had studied, i got one wrong on. on section 1, 4 out of the 5 i got wrong >.< 5 out of 20 wrong, giving me a total score of a solid C. the sad thing is i actually knew how to do it, it just didn't occur to me until AFTER i got my test back. moral of the story is don't overlook the easy shit and just study the hard shit. lesson learned i guess.

finished my paper finally. still have a few kinks to work out in it but i'd say it's like 97% done. have to finish an extra credit project on wednesday and read a shit ton of oceanography this week. but oceanography is the final load. after this week it's finals. it looks like i'm going to be getting solid B's this semester sadly.

this whole college thing is really starting to become stressful. my brother pretty much gave me a wakeup call yesterday by saying "do you know what your major is?" i responded that i wasn't sure yet. he said "you do know that you have to apply to the colleges that you want next semester right?" in one sense i did know that, but it felt like it was coming a lot slower than it actually was. as much of an interesting journey as it's been, i can say that i have quite a few regrets. i almost wish i didn't take BS classes like philo logic, law and the media, and a few other classes. i also wish i would have gotten a real programming class out of the way but because of prerequisites, i only finished all of the ones that i needed to before i could take C or Java last semester. i was going to take java this semester, but thought it might interfere with actionscript so i decided not to. i also wish that i would have got this geometry class out of the way a year ago when i first needed to take it. my thing is though, i don't want a job that i'm going to hate. sure i could become a software engineer, but what if i end up hating it? i've already gone that road with PHP even though i've never really learned a language that creates desktop programs. it's also so damn frustrating and i'm not going to be able to relax this summer.

the plan: either i'm going to take a C class this summer in session 1, and a geo class in session 3, pick up trig in fall and C++, and precalc in spring. or not take a C class in session 1, focus on learning more actionscript, maybe do some geometry/ trig along the way, and also read some books on beginning programming. this is one of those really important decisions that i'm going to have to make real soon.

i guess i have a lot of thinking to do.

ineffablol @ 2009-05-17T10:36:00

2009-05-17T17:48:02Z

my brother's birthday was on the 9th. i didn't get him a birthday present until a few days ago. i got him a usb-bluetooth device so he could sync up his phone with his laptop. but to solve the problem, i think he is just going to get an SD card. normally he would also need a bluetooth thing still, except...his laptop has an SD card port so the bluetooth thing i'm buying him is nearly completely useless >.< he can however use it on his desktop so that should be cool.

i finally reinstalled ubuntu. i still remember how to do some of the things i learned when i took my linux class which is pretty awesome.

so my cousin told me not to ship the computer and he just came and picked it up. i charged him $40 for everything(simple reformat, reinstall, and data recovery) and he told me that back at his home town(where there must only be like one computer guy) he said he would charge him $200. i was all like =0 he saw all that i did, and he was pleased with my work. i couldn't get his itunes music to play, but that was a problem with itunes, so maybe when he reinstall it it will work.

i have a shit ton of oceanography to catch up on and a bit of other work for my english and logic class. man, these finals are going to suck ass!

ineffablol @ 2009-05-13T15:04:00

2009-05-13T22:12:49Z

so apparently i'm getting into a really bad habbit of drinking coffee before eating lunch. as a result, i feel like my whole body is just going to break apart, as well as feeling nauseous. that was exactly what happened yesterday. i went to starbucks yesterday after class to practice some logic problems, remembered that i had a coupon for a free coffee, and i drank it before i ate any food. i ate like a danish or something earlier, but that wasn't really a breakfast. i didn't eat till i got back home around like ~7pm or something. since i was up on skype till 2am, and had to wake up at 7am, i was stupid tired. kept falling asleep on the bus lol.

i saw Mel after class and we chatted for around 5 minutes. i've always liked Mel, i told him we should hang out sometime soon. he said he'd let me know when he's free.

after English class, i went to go visit Christen at her starbucks. i hung around for an hour or so and was chatting it up with her friend Jose. he seems like a super chill guy. apparently he's really into Formula one racing, something i knew nothing about at all. apparently it's some sort of racing competition where the people running the races create a formula and the engineers who can guess the formula most correctly usually have the best race car. he seemed so excited about it. after he finished explaining that to me, i went off on an excited conversation myself about computers, i was telling him about Quad-cores, AMD vs Intel, Ubuntu, L.A.M.P., etc. he seemed pretty interested in it. he told me that he's applying at a Verizon store so that should be cool. he seems like a nice guy, and i would definitely want to hang out with him again in the future.

have the test i've been anticipating for tomorrow. i don't think it should go too bad.